This ain’t a mental health awareness post.
This is dishes stacked in the sink from bowls of chips or grapes
This is laundry overflowing in the basket
and when you run out of clean things to wear
This is the heels, silk top and skirt
afro piled high
and makeup to walk to the corner store.
This is rewatching mindless youtube videos about tomato sauce
strawberry cake
or celebrity gossip.
This is rewatching Game of Thrones for the fourth time this year
because you can’t stand to learn new scripts.
This is buying piles of books to watch them collect dust on an crowded desk.
This is buying the corresponding audiobook and promising the listen swearing you will clutch the book and peer over every word and fall asleep to the floating voice from the speakers.
This is buying stuff, just stuff from Amazon, Nordstrom and Sephora
add that to the dusty pile of books.
This is unwashed hair
wrinkled, clammy sheets
rough skin
dust underfoot
leftover jalapeño chips on the back of teeth.
This is eating nothing
eating nothing but coffee and croissants
drinking wine for water
eating everything.
This is signing up for a Spanish class and quitting
signing up for french and quitting
signing up for photography and quitting
signing up for a writing seminar and not quitting (but were you paying attention?)
At bedtime, water drips from the faucet with the too full bowls and impending water bill scrolls on the back of your closed eyelids by movie credits
and you sit there and watch.
instead of just getting up and turning it off.
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